The Time I Thought Our Plane Might Crash
“What’s going on? Please don’t let us die. Please don’t let the plane crash.” These words ran through my head during the last part of the scariest flight I’ve ever been on.
We had about 12 days for our trip to Turkey. Since we didn’t want to waste too much time with long transit days, we booked a flight from Istanbul to Cappadocia instead of 10-12 hours on a bus. Andy doesn’t like to fly, and for 10 years, he didn’t step foot on an airplane. Luckily he started flying again almost two years ago, but it’s still not his preferred method of travel. But he knew this was our best option.
When it came time for this flight, Andy decided to try it without taking a pill like he normally does since he felt ok on the flight to Istanbul. But after a bumpy first half hour, he pulled out the pills. The wind wasn’t horrible, but it didn’t let up and it made for a less-than-comfortable flight. I tried my best to distract Andy by flipping through the in-flight magazine and babbling on about all sorts of random things.
At some point I started getting antsy and looked at my watch. We should’ve landed a few minutes ago, I thought. I glanced out the windows and saw enough lights to indicate we were probably over Kayseri. A little while later, still in the air, I realized we were circling. The plane jiggled with turbulence, the kind that’s tolerable for a few seconds, but almost nauseating when it continues for 20 minutes. Andy was getting more anxious about not being on the ground yet, and I was getting more annoyed at the delay.
Finally the plane started to descend. It was bumpy and wobbly as it hit pockets of wind, but at least the flight was almost over. As the plane neared the runway, I felt myself begin to relax. So close to solid ground, no more turbulence, and one step closer to going to sleep in our next hotel.
But right as the back wheels of the plane hit the ground, and as dozens of passengers started clapping that we were finally done, the plane was taking off again. I hadn’t even had time to breath a sigh of relief that we were finally on the runway, and we were back up in the air again. What the hell was going on?
Andy was obviously freaked out by this, and to be honest, so was I. I just didn’t want to show him. I’m always reminding him that everything is fine when we fly, so if I was scared, how could I convince him not to be? So I just squeezed his hand. I spent nine years working in aviation insurance, and I have around several friends who are either air traffic controllers, pilots or flight attendants, so I know pilots train on touch-and-goes. I told Andy this, and I kept reminding myself that the pilots knew what they were doing, but I was still freaked out.
Finally, 10 minutes later, the pilot made an announcement. I assume he was explaining what was going on, but even in English, his accent was so heavy I could only understand a couple words. The man sitting next to me in the window seat was Turkish but lives in Austria, so he speaks German, but very little English. He asked me if Andy spoke German and offered to explain to him, but I shook my head no. I had no idea what this guy would say, and I didn’t want him to accidentally make things worse. Telling him Andy didn’t speak German seemed like the safer option.
When the plane touched down the second time, 20 minutes later, no one clapped. But I could feel the tension in the air dissipate when it was clear the flight was truly over. Andy and I spent an hour in the shuttle van barely awake and trying to relax. The stress of the flight was exhausting, even aside from the fact that it was already midnight, but we were still shaken up from the experience.
Our first question while checking into our hotel in Cappadocia? “Where can we get a drink?” The manager was quick to bring Andy a beer and me a vodka and Coke.
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Just in case you were wondering, as soon as we had our WiFi password, I sent a message to my best friend Rachel, who is an air traffic controller in Las Vegas, asking her about our experience. Las Vegas is really windy too, and she said it happens quite often there. She told me if a strong cross-wind comes up unexpectedly, it’s better for the pilot to take off again than to attempt a bad landing. This all made me feel better, and it definitely made Andy feel better.
July 12, 2012 @ 11:50 AM
I’ve been flying solo since I was 6 so I love planes…when everything goes right and although I don’t panic too easily, when things do go really wrong such as a cross wind or you hit an air pocket, it really makes you realise just how vulnerable you are in the sky :s Glad you were both okay after the stiff drink 🙂
July 12, 2012 @ 2:00 PM
Thanks Toni! For the most part I like flying too, and I almost never get freaked out by any of it, but this time certainly was scary!
July 12, 2012 @ 2:25 PM
Worst. Nightmare! It’s funny, I was fine with planes until I started traveling. Now, 40 flights later I am absolutely terrifying of flying and I have no idea why… Ugh, this would have had me crying!
July 12, 2012 @ 5:23 PM
That’s so weird to suddenly be afraid of flying and not know why! Ugh, I would hate that! I think it helped that I knew pilots train on this stuff, otherwise I might’ve cried!
July 12, 2012 @ 2:32 PM
I’m a recovering terrified flier. I now manage to fly without drugs or prescriptive drinking (I still drink b/c I like to!) but I have not yet had a bad flight with this new found flying freedom….we’ll see what happens when I do! I’m sorry you both had a bad flight but I know Andy is particularly nervous – I hope it doesn’t set him back.
July 12, 2012 @ 5:24 PM
Well, luckily (or unluckily, depending on how you look at it) we did have 3 more flights booked after this one, and there was no getting out of them. He still hates to fly and would rather not do it, but his prescription drugs do help some. And sometimes a beer 🙂
July 12, 2012 @ 6:51 PM
I was on edge reading this! The not knowing what was going on thing must have been terrifying. I don’t usually like flying and feel scared when there is even a tiny bit of turbulance. When I flew to Vegas from England a few years ago, there was particularly bad turbulance – the kind where the plane drops all of a sudden. My friend was happily sitting there laughing her head off over a film she was watching and I was literally frozen with fear.
July 12, 2012 @ 9:43 PM
You sound exactly like my husband! He’s always asking me about tiny little bumps that I don’t even feel, and the those big drops you mentioned are what he fears most about flying. I hate that you’re afraid of flying too! (Maybe get some pills from your doctor like Andy does. Or at least start drinking on planes!)
July 13, 2012 @ 12:03 AM
I think I would have puked all over the place from nerves. Landings are the worst for me. I don’t mind flights and take offs but good lord I think that would have killed me.
July 13, 2012 @ 3:12 PM
I think somehow trying to keep it together so Andy didn’t freak out even more helped me stay somewhat calm. It probably would’ve been easier to handle with a native English speaking pilot because even when our pilot spoke in English, we could barely understand him.
July 13, 2012 @ 8:57 AM
Too scary! We both hate to fly – not getting on a plane for 10 years is a good effort!
July 13, 2012 @ 3:19 PM
He moved here on a trans-Atlantic cruise ship! That’s dedication to traveling despite a fear of flying!
July 13, 2012 @ 11:27 AM
Poor Andy!
And then I think about the idiot I was, talking with you guys in Istanbul about the bad weather heading our way before we all went to Italy.
BAD friend! BAD friend!
July 13, 2012 @ 3:20 PM
Well, yeah that didn’t really help for our next flight 😉 But he was ok. After this bad flight, we had the flight back to Istanbul, then to Rome, then back home to Germany. He didn’t exactly enjoy any of those, but he did ok.
July 13, 2012 @ 4:05 PM
OMG that is crazy… I really would have died. I’m not scared of flying but when turbulence happens HOLY SHIT do I get so scared. Like VERY… I hate it, I start thinking okay if this is it at least I know I died happy. I know dramatic, but that’s all I can think. I’m glad yall survived. As for Andy crazy he avoided flying for 10 years… and crazy that he got over there on a trans-atlantic cruise. That is real dedication to dealing with a fear.
July 13, 2012 @ 5:04 PM
HA! Yes, you are a bit dramatic, Jaime, but after this flight I can imagine freaking out and thinking it might be the end. And I like to think of Andy’s trans-Atlantic cruise as dedication to travel despite the fear of flying.
July 13, 2012 @ 4:36 PM
Eeeeeek I’d have hated that! I’m not the best flyer, and am always relieved whenever I land – so to take off again and not be able to understand why?! I’d have been totally freaked out. Good info at the end about Las Vegas, too – I’ll be flying into there next year, so I know what’s going on if that happens!
July 13, 2012 @ 5:06 PM
It was freaky, but we made it. And I’ve flown to Vegas numerous times without any issues, but since my friend is an air traffic controller there, she definitely sees a lot more stuff. At least those pilots are used to dealing with it.
July 13, 2012 @ 5:47 PM
Good to know that it was probably just because of wind and not something wrong with the plane. Glad you guys are okay!
July 13, 2012 @ 5:53 PM
Thanks Christy! It was definitely a wind issue. I imagine if there was something wrong with the plane, we wouldn’t have been able to take off again. It was scary, but fine in the end.
July 13, 2012 @ 10:09 PM
My mom is the world’s WORST flier. She has both an irrational fear of flying AND is claustrophobic. She is the woman you never want to sit next to on the plane.
I can’t even imagine if she were on a flight with me and this happened. A flight attendant would probably have to sedate her.
July 14, 2012 @ 2:45 PM
Does she take anything before she flies? Sounds awful!
July 14, 2012 @ 7:06 AM
I am NOT a nervous flyer- I’ve been on over 200 flights in the past four years but I always say a prayer before each and every takeoff. ESPECIALLY when my babies are on board!!!! It’s the safest way to travel but stuff does happen and it’s scary! Glad you all are ok!
July 14, 2012 @ 2:54 PM
Thanks Hilarye! I’m always reminding Andy that flying is safer than driving, but fears aren’t part of the rational mind. I’m not a nervous flyer either, but situations like this are definitely exceptions!
July 14, 2012 @ 10:00 AM
I had a similar experience coming in for a landing in Calgary. Funny thing was that I had just turned on my cell phone before we landed and then all of a sudden we missed the runway and were ascending again. I turned off my phone just in case it was me 🙂 Glad that everything went ok, but scary nonetheless.
July 14, 2012 @ 2:56 PM
Hilarious Pete! I’m positive it had nothing to do with your cell phone. There are people who leave theirs on for the entire flight and there’s no problem. I know my friend told me stuff like this happens often enough, but it’s oddly comforting to know of someone else who has been in a similar experience.
July 15, 2012 @ 10:31 AM
This was a really awful experience. It freaked me out at the time a lot. Enough to want to take buses for the next few weeks. I still take the drugs. One of the ways they affect me is that although I still freak out at the time, they seem to let the memories fade faster than they normally would. There isn’t such the fear attached with them.
July 15, 2012 @ 11:27 AM
I’m sorry you hate flying so much, but I’m glad you made it through this one and you were able to get on the next 3 flights later in the trip. We need some meds that calm you down during the flight 🙂
July 15, 2012 @ 1:50 PM
I experienced the same – our plane was circling for an hour due to bad weather. I felt like I’d have a heart attack. But I get used to it, perhaps frequent flying will give one the courage. Talking about facing one’s fear.
I enjoyed reading your post. Wish you more safe (and relaxing) flights. 🙂
July 15, 2012 @ 2:12 PM
Ugh, that sounds awful! I’m glad you’re getting used to it though, always good to face your fears. Thanks for reading, I’m glad you’re enjoying my blog!
July 17, 2012 @ 5:04 PM
What a terrifying experience! I dread the day this happens to me. So far, so good.
July 17, 2012 @ 5:20 PM
Hopefully you won’t ever have to experience it, but if you do, just remember, the pilots are trained to handle it!
July 19, 2012 @ 1:25 PM
Hi Ali
What you experienced is called a go around. This is actually quite common and can be caused by a wind direction change, aircraft to slow getting off the runway and other things. Like you said pilots train for this kind of thing and you where never in any danger. I
I experienced this coming into Vancouver, we where just about to land then the engines roared and up we went again!
I really enjoy your blog and I hope your next flight is not so stressful 🙂
July 19, 2012 @ 1:44 PM
Thanks Shaun! Yeah, I was so glad that I have friends in aviation who were able to reassure us that this was normal and nothing to worry about. But when those wheels hit the ground and we took off again, definitely scary! Thanks for reading, I’m glad you enjoy my blog!
July 22, 2012 @ 3:48 PM
Probably the worst experience you guys could have had! Eek
July 22, 2012 @ 5:47 PM
Yep, it was pretty bad! But we made it through ok.
July 22, 2012 @ 4:32 PM
I’m not afraid of flying at all, but this would have made me a bit nervous! How harrowing!
July 22, 2012 @ 5:47 PM
Same here, I’m not afraid of it at all but that was scary. Andy was NOT happy to have experienced that flight!
July 23, 2012 @ 4:19 AM
Oh shoot this just happened to me too on my latest flight! And, sitting behind me: someone deathly afraid to fly, my heart went out to him. But it is scary when you’re landing and then you turn straight back up, even for us frequent fliers! May your and Andy’s skies be much calmer in the future!
July 23, 2012 @ 2:44 PM
OMG really?! Ugh, scary isn’t it? Thanks Amanda!
July 23, 2012 @ 8:03 PM
I find I’m most afraid when I’m traveling with people who dislike flying, I feel so anxious for them when I know things will be fine.
I’m happy to hear you didn’t crash 🙂
July 23, 2012 @ 9:17 PM
Thanks Ayngelina! I think I do feel more nervous when I’m flying with Andy since he doesn’t like to fly. I spend the whole time trying to keep him calm that it actually freaks me out a little. Oh well, not going to stop traveling because of that!
September 2, 2012 @ 3:09 AM
I’m glad you survived to tell the tale! I probably would have bitten off all of my fingernails.
September 2, 2012 @ 1:12 PM
Thanks Mary! It was so scary, but really the stress came from having to pretend I wasn’t scared so I could keep Andy calm!